Okay, so I was just turned down for being accepted as a member of the Chatham County Arts Guild. I have to admit I'm a little disappointed but not surprised. They said that the six images that I sent with my application could have been done by six different artists. They wondered if I hadn't yet figured out my style as an artist. There are two different ways that I can look at this.
1. As an illustrator, I really do have to 'shapeshift' in order to do each assignment. Because each assignment has been commissioned by a different person with different vision and I have to stretch myself to bring it to fruition to fit the person's vision, their budget and my ability. I am committed to doing all of this even though it's kind of new to me and it's just too soon in my career as an artist or illustrator for my work to show any consistency.
2. Perhaps they hit the nail on the head, and it's true that as an artist I haven't yet discovered my style, my 'niche'. I am all over the place with my efforts to figure out what medium and what subject I want to pursue and it shows.
Also, I've just finished a 27-year career as a hair stylist that meant really sinking my teeth into how to make each unique client happy. It's a new and different question to ask "what makes me happy" or "what kind of art do I want to create?" I have done lots of different art in many different directions but I still haven't done enough to know what it is in the art world that I'm hungry to explore very deeply. It's an entirely different way of thinking which I'm only beginning to learn.
Being turned down for this arts guild might be the best thing that could have happened to me. It really makes me think to process all of this and stretch myself in search of the answers.
It's very exciting!!!